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TA DA!! Look What I can Do!

2012-01-09T00:06:00.000-08:00

Guess What I went & Did!
YESssssss! I said Yessss!
I went & Married my Man! & What an amazing Man he is!
I cant say it enough.. he completes me.. he makes me.. he Is me..
or.. as he says..I am you.. you are me...
this.. is something in my life that is so right..
Him..
us..
We.. together!

Ive always known im a happier person as a couple..
and Ive said it time & time again..
I'm a much better person as a couple then I could ever be alone..
Not to say i couldnt 'do it alone'..
I could.. quite well probably.. But then there's that whole 'happiness' factor.
I dont' NEED a man.. But I do need a partner..
Someone in life that loves me.. respects me.. encourages me.. in every aspect..
wants me as much as I do him.. and he does..
My love does all of these things for me.. with me.
And Bonus, he adores me along with everything else.. He truly thinks of me as
the best thing that has ever happened to him..
Which is awesome.. because I Know this to be true for me as well..
He .. is the beat of my heart..

Ok.. enough of that.. I know in reading it people are most likely on the verge
of nausea.. Somehing about listening to someone go on and on about a person they love tends to make you want to not look..
So..
promise.. I'll keep these teen moments to my self..
alright..
maybe just one more..
K&C Forever!!

Whats Next?

2011-11-08T23:16:00.000-08:00

Ok.. Just wrote to My Great friend CS.. I swear If i had one person Icould have be my own personal Cheerleader.. it'd most likely be her!
No matter the ass kickin I give myself.. She always manages to make me reel it back in .
Anyway.. I'd mentioned that life is good.. So I should probably continue on with writing about that.. As most people tend to dwel on the Crap rather then the good.. I think maybe sometimes its a little easier to do.. So.. Lets see what positives i can focus on.
(Even though this IS the nitegardener page!)

Its official.. Im happy.
Content, relieved some more with life. especially in knowing that I am with someone so wonderful and kind & loving.
We plan our life together. looking at what direction we want to now go.
Moving some day very soon is in our near future (Hopefully)..Since we are currently dwelling in 2 households still. This is very irritating as well as not very efficiant, cost effectively.
Why have double expenses?
Utilities etc. Besides.. I find myself spending so much on gas running back & forth between the two places trying to keep up with my place too.
We know theres an inevitable move.. and are happily looking forward to this!
My place wont do. ties, memories, burdens & issues there.
His does not hold the Lifestyle possibilities we both yearn for.
Which is a more 'Self Sustaining' livelihood along with some space that allows us to expand & grow.. As well as some nice big fat breathing room!

Growing up in the 60's & 70's as kids.. Surrounded by Vietnam News, Protests & politics as we did. We both seem to question everything.. The Why's.. The Validity.. The Reasons..
Add to that the fact that we both are very even tempered, easy going & relaxed about most things.. (Yes.. Mine is there.. just s bit burried from being sat on for so long..)
We feel confident in that we can rely on each other for most of what we seek.
We are comfortable in knowing that we wont need much.. Actually would rather less.
Be more self reliant & self sustaining in our ventures together.
We are already leaning in that direction.. Christopher is an avid Gardener.. Quite handy.
& I try real hard at both.. Always Supporting my man!
We have a nice cashe of seeds and beans from previous harvests.. of course lots more will be needed to do what we hope to.
We have some pretty amazing chickens!
A hand ful of Americauna's, a couple Sexlinks, some Reds (A Buff & a Rhodi Island Red.) and even a Silkie Hybrid!
Goats are a nice goal for us...
Had em before.. loved the fun entertainment they always were..
Now we're gonna put em to work!
More fowl and we'll grow from there.
We hope to move quickly in our plans so we can begin our journey then move towards helping others find the same 'brigadoon' as we hope to create for ourselves.
I am very much looking forward to some many happy years of joy, peace, enrichment, nourishing thoughts, contented days & a fulfilling lifestyle.
Now the biggest thing for us is locating a place to call home.. And go from their!

To be Continued....

"Slack Ass"

2011-10-14T02:29:00.000-07:00

SLACK ASS! THIS should surely be my new Title when it comes to keeping up in BLOG Land!
Seriously..
I cant seem to motivate myself to write.. and funny thing is.. i really do enjoy it..
This blindless purging..
So.. 'Ruler to Wrist'.. Here goes again.. (Not that anyone reads me anymore cause they just never know when I will go into a rant or bitch over laod and feel compelled to spill anymore..)
But I feel I need to.. especially when I may actually have good things happening in my life..
Ok.. Divorced a year now.. Check.
Still struggle emotionally with said Divorce.. or more so.. the actual break up.
But.. Water under the bridge so to speak.. I survived the 1st year of sepeartion.. drowned a little.. Thank God for Family , friends and love.
Made it through an entire 1st year of divorce with out jumping outta any open windows.. What a year that was.. But strangely.. not as horrible as the year of seperation BEFORE the Divorce.. I had moments of clarity.. moments of ghost walking.. lots of numbness and truly.. so many dumb ideas and thoughts.. add to that 'Speed dating'.. I have no idea what my mind was trying to do.
I did realize early on that 1. I did NOT want to be alone.. & 2. That I was in search of a partner.
Funny.. (Not HaHa) I said things like.." I know Im a better person as a couple then i could ever be as a single person'. And I dont mean by saying that Im not ok on my own.. or that I am not of any value or have no quality being by myself.. I just know im happiest being with someone.. having someone to take care and someone that cares for me in the same way..
I KNEW I did NOT want to be alone....!
So...
The "Taking Applications and Conducting Interviews" process began!
Rarely did one make it to the 2nd interview.. rarer yet.. a 3rd..
Being "Voted off my Island" was inevitable.
Im not fussy.. Im not picky.. Im not looking for perfection..
Im looking for mine..
MY perfect fit. MY Soul mate. MY True Love. MY Man!
I found him.
I'd decidced I was done searching.. For awhile anyway. I was going to take in my search feeders and just try to recoup and ponder life.. only temporarily though..
And of course.. thats how it happens.. He found me..
I said i found him.. Truthfully.. he found me..
I had decided I liked him right off.. But was now in the.. "just a day at a time, not looking" mode now. So i saw us as possibly being great friends but had no inclination of it being more.
Our first 'Date'.. As HE calls it was our "Potatoe Chucking Date" He invited me out to his house.. Where he planned a great dinner of one of his Specialties.. Meatloaf!! Terrific dinner!
But prior to our dinner he showed me around his Home & Garden.. Where he decided we needed to forage for potatoes! He started digging in with his pitchfork and began unearthing some beautiful home growns! I sat along the grass as we talked and he worked.. He then procceded to 'chuck' potatoes at me.. Quite funny on a 1st date I thought! Definetly brought an aire of ease to the date! We then finished preparing dinner.. stuck it in the oven And took a quik drive out to the Beach to see the sun set. It was so freaking windy and cold He burried me in his jacket! Nice & Cozy! (I'm certain now today this of course was part of his plan to woe me.
Home for a great Dinner.. Then he reminded me how to play Back Gammon after over 20 years of not playing... I sucked at it of course..
So.. History was made..
I am Still with My Potatoe Chuckin Man today & In More Love With him then Id ever thought I deserved to be!
So.. Happy Ending for me after all!

Life Goes on.............

2011-05-11T01:28:00.000-07:00

And on.. And on.. And on.. somewhere.
Still plugging at it.. still working at it.. still looking, hoping and trying to make things work.
What a difficult life it is starting from scratch alone.
Still of the mind set that I never felt I took anything for granted as far as the many gifts of my life..
Good, Bad or Otherwise.
But dammit..
How did I never 'see' how hard this would be?
Not that I had a choice.. not that I had a say so really.
I mean sure.. there were tough times.. rough patches and worrisome bouts.
But this.. This sense of alone and stranded and abandondment can be quite over whelming at times.
Making one wonder how we go on.
How we will ever, I mean EVER make it out alive!
Surely scathed!
The polar opposite of course of 'unscathed'!
Not to be confused of course with damaged goods mind you.. just damaged.

I'd like to say each day gets a bit easier.
It doesnt really, but maybe a little less painful.
Maybe a little less devastation..
Tears still flow, just able to keep them a bit more in check.
Not quite so mind of their own-ish.

Still.. plenty of worry, fear, wonder and what ifs going on..

But!

I do realize for the first time tonight I just may be ready to make some jokes about it all.
Not whats happened really.. not about him or us or the loss of a life..
But the aftermath..
Mulling it around a bit tonight.
Thinking my next installment or 2 might just so happen to be a bit if for lack of better words..
Strangely humorous.....

Thoughts are roaming....

TBC..

Old Me.. Slightly More Jaded

2011-02-25T03:01:00.000-08:00

After being 'gone' for so long I know I need to write, to express, to purge.
I have been keeping a journal. But somehow, this feeling very unfulfilling.
Ive missed my Blog(s). I think this is where I need to be.
I miss so many of my friends from 'here'....

Now looking at my life I am so very imprssed with my having split into 2 Blogs!
I can still do the Sweet, Cute and Girlie stuff over at the Lighter side..
But can still express and vent and bitch here with out too much concern of Stepping on Toes or offending..

The Down Side is this:
Im writing now to REALLY unload..
Im divorced.. He left me, He says Im no longer what he wants..
Have you ANY idea the hell , pain and fear It is to be starting all over again , ON YOUR OWN..
In every aspect of your life at this age?
Devastating!
THIS truly is the word of the year!
Nothing else better describes it!
I wish this feeling and experience on No one else.
Not even him.

So, forgive me in advance for my rants and ramblings here for as long as Im compelled to
expell them..
Im sure I'll be ignored or snuck off away from for a bit by some.
But really.. This is my life , whats left of it and how I choose to move forward and live again, rebuilding around me.

Please, feel free to tell me to shut the hell up.. Shake it off.. Move forward.. Let it go.. Piss off..
tell me your experiences.. Anything..
Everything..
Im here to hear.. to gain insight and wanting to move forward..
With just a shade more jade to me then before....

Working anyone???

2010-01-24T22:06:00.000-08:00

Is everyone working now except me? Or are we all still unemployed?
Because for the love of God I NEED A DAMN JOB!!!
Worked devotedly for the same company for over 2 years..
Then.. last year on April 1st.. ( Yes.. April fools day..)
They showed up looking like the Men in Black and played a very ugly game of
Duck Duck Goose.. and with in a weeks time 150 of my closest friends an enemies were hitting
the skids and heading for the unemployment line! Same thing happened in one of our offices
just north of us but there were over 250 that were abducted from that office!
So.. just incase there was ANY Question WHAT so ever...
It is NOT the Happiest Place on Earth! they are big fat liars!
I still need a job.. And as of yet I'm getting nothing back!
So it appears that there is not a big call for Bossy, Smart Ass , Middle Aged Woman!
.... Side Note ....
If you hear of anything.. be sure and let me know!

Well.. So much for a Commitment to Resolutions..

2010-01-23T18:48:00.000-08:00

I do have a real want to do this.. even a need to ..
So I am dragging my sorry ass to this computer to post.. however miserable my messages may be.
o here it is. Post.. Post Post.. There.. I did is. Nah!

Lots of Love to You All..

New Years Resolution

2010-01-12T14:13:00.000-08:00

Ok! Its been nearly a year .. Officially .. Since I Have been on my Blog! Sadly.. Pitifully .. Retarded! Life has been crazy.. But a Year? Wow..
Ok.. So THIS is my New Years Resolution..
To get my ass in gear & Start being more commited to my Blogs!
( Yes.. that was Plural.. the other is on the lite side..
Not as much "True Confessions" And Bitching as this one will allow!
Whew.. this wore me out.. Not used to so much typing..
I'll have to come up with a story tomorrow!

Moving Day For Penny Layne

2009-01-14T19:37:00.000-08:00

Penny Lanye Has been in her same Tank Since she has been home with me..
She Seemed ralatively Happy.. But.. I always knew there was something missing.. i knew there was more that she was reaching for.. Stars maybe?.. Sky?.. Space?.. Ya See Penny is an Aboreal.. Meaning she wants to climb as High as her beautiful Pink Toes will let her.. She's not content to stay on the ground or under a log.. or definatly NOT tunnel under some dark hole in the Earth.. No.. Penny wants to see things from Up high! So.. I felt Penny Needed a Condo.. PentHouse style.. & Now She's Got it!.. Front opening doors.. her own Skylight.. lush landscape. & even a rock wall to climb & jump on if she wants!
You can See Penny in her New Abode.. She's VERY Pleased!

Penny Walking Allong her new Glass Wall.. yes.. She IS Spider Woman! Anyone Want to be Saved?

& the Web is The AMAZING Hammock She Weaves! This one was Pre-move.. Can't Wait to see where to decides to locate one in her Condo!

Well The Nite Gardener Likes to Go to Flea markets too ya Know!

2009-01-14T19:20:00.000-08:00

& Wow.. Look what a Beautiful Piece of Jewelry We found!..............................................................

She's been named Ellesmera.. She's now 13 years old.. She should live to be at least twice that.Nice Healthy Ball Python.. Came with her Tank & all.. The Man had her Priced at $40.00 which was an absolute steal! But My mind had since been made up that i did NOT need a Snake Thank You Very Much!.. However I kept seeing her everytime I'd pass the isle.. up & down.. she was still for sale.. No takers.. & I knew she was sweet.. I'd already held her when I first saw her..So As i was Leaving.. there She was.. Still aiting for me to buy her.. So.. I dug in my Pocket.. to see what I had left aster the day of Flea Market Shopping.. I now had $33.00.. I asked the man what was the least he'd take.. he said what do you have left.. I said $33.00.. he said thats it..But he'd broken her tank on the drive over.. so I baby sat his booth while he drove home real quik to get a nice big 4 foot one for me.. for her! & he hooked us up!Elle Is home with me & happy.. Which is all He had said he had wanted..I think he would have probably just given her To me If I'd have pulled out an Empty Pocket..She was supposed to come home with me! Too perfect a Girl to stay there all day Long & no one else take an interest in her!So... meet Ellesmera

Cooking With Dee

2008-11-14T10:48:00.001-08:00

...................... Well first off You Must Know that Dee is a Self Taught cook.

She has learned all she knows by watching the TV,Reading,& spying on Others.. She has wonderful Kitchen habits & Follows a few simple rules. everyone can learn floowing her example: No Blood.. Keep it clean.. Wear an Apron.. her Favorite is the One her Aunt Karin sent her with a Spider on it! Wash your hands, Keep your hair up & away, & pay attention so there are no additional fingers or toes that wind up in the mix.. unless the recipe actually calls for it.. she says we shant surprise anyone! That being said, Dee is on her way.Her All Time FAV thing to do Is Bake! Dee LOVES to play in the flower! she loves the Texture of it, the fluff of it, the way it just flies through the air when she tosses it about!

But then, thats Play time, THIS is work time, back to the business at hand!

...................................................................................................Sunday Dinner Dee wanted to make Something Scrumptious for everyone to snack on.She decided on her all time favorite, Zuchini Bread! She read her recipe First.Which Dee says is always a good idea to do before you begin,no matter how well you may THINK you remember your ingrediants, you don't want to accidentaly come up short of a much needed item! That could be a disaster! So, she reads.,then pulls out all her stuff & starts a mixing! once made Dee is always happy with the end result becasue she loves to share her baked goods with friends & family!

After she baked her Bread she saw that Mom Needed help. As ALWAYS,So she jumped right in as all good little bad girls do & decided she would cut up the Potatoes for the Scalloped potatoes! She LOVES cutting stuff up.. this actually is one of her all time favorite Hobbies (& Pssttt.. shhh. secret.. mom hid all her favorite scissers from her.. something about all the cloths having holes in them or some such thing.. so she sure would kill for a new teeny little pair.. you know.. for art projects & stuff.!)

............................................So, Potatoes Cut.. Dee got to mix in the other ingredients.She knows how to add more cream Cheese then Mom.. Tsk Tsk Tsk .. Mom always tries to put half a chunk of Cream Cheese in the mix, DEE knows a WHOLE thing tastes LOTS better. Thats why everyone brags on Dee's Scalloped potatoes better'n Moms!

So.. Dee was a Big help in the Kitchen Sunday. She did a Great Job & Everyone made a fuss over her, as usual! Well Done Dee!

WHY o WHY do we think we need to improve things??

2008-11-08T17:32:00.000-08:00

SO very Sorry I EVEN suggested we May want to add a Deck to the back of our House..
What IN the HELL was I thinking???
TWO solid Months Later.. I now have a Back door thats been shifted a total of 27 inches to the right.. the entire Laundry room has had to be re-wired (REALLY?? THIS was Required?)
The Washer & Dryer & the wall that they WERE on have now sled that 27 inches into the laundry room as well.. There is an opening THROUGH the hall bath .. Through the Laundry room so now i am able to carry on a conversation with whom ever may be sitting on that Hall Throne while I'm doing dishes in the kitchen! THREE rooms.. completely wide open!
The tub that WAS in this bath room is now gone.. A new one in it's place.. Sort of..
& the window above it replaced as well..
To recap.. I STILL do not have a Deck.. You can't piss in this bathroom with out anyone in the Kitchen, laundry room or back door seeing you for that matter! the tub is now not able to be used since NOW there isn't any tile, dry wall.. or ANYTHING around it yet! & My washer & Dryer are in the middle of the room.. & I sort of slide them around according to which i need to use!
When will this REHAB that took about 15 feet off the back of my house that appaently needed to be replaced too!?? I have NO Freaking idea..
I Do know that I Do NOT wish to look into the Eyes of the Electric Meter Reader again next time I decide I want to Pee In the hall Bathway!
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So Hard To Say Good Bye To An Old Friend..

2008-07-16T12:28:00.000-07:00

In All the Many.. Many Years that We;ve had a Farm & Live Stock we have had So Many terrific Dogs that have come & Gone in our Lives..
Having a Farm You Know people just naturally think this is just the place they all should go to when they are trying to find a new home for them.. & really.. rightly so.. What Dog WOULDN'T want to go live on a Farm.. ?
Besides.. Thats where Our Parents always told us all our Dogs went when they all came up missing when we were growing up.. Remember? 'The Farm' The GLORIOUS Farm.. all Dogs Dream of 'The Farm'.!

Anyway.. We have had So Many Dogs Come & Go.. Most were just fantastic Dogs.. But then.. aren't most Dogs just Fantastic anyway? Some stayed.. some moved on.. some left with other People.. Some chose us.. Some we Chose.. Some came with damaged Hearts or bodies.. regardless.. they were all loved..

There was One Dog Named Jake.. Jake was a German Shepard/Chow Mix.. He looked exactly Like a German Shepard..
But maybe a bit more Fluffy.. & of course that Tell Tale Chow Black Tongue.. He was Such a Sweetie Pie..
Nice Big Dog.. We are not little Dog People.. although you wouldn't know this now in our old Age.. we seem surrounded by smidgy little dogs as of late..
Jake Came to us Via My Son Petey's Ag Teacher.. Who had Jake Tied up in his Yard.. (For good Reason..) Jake had a touch of the Gypsie Blood.. he liked to roam a bit too much!
& everytime I happened to be over visiting The Ag Barn.. there Would be Jake.. All excited to see me.. ! ( Of Course he was thrilled to see everyone.. he was Tied up afterall..!)
So, One day.. Petey Showed up at OUR Barn With Jake.. "Mr. Brown said he wanted you to have Jake.. He knows how much you love this Dog he said!" Actually.. This was A Very Sweet way for Mr.Brown to drive the Dog over & drop him off at my gate.. he just did it alot nicer..!
So.. That was about 14 years ago or so.. & Mr. Brown felt that Jake was 2 years old then.. So.. We had our Jakie for a very long time.. & I can't say it enough how Lucky we were the Day Mr. Brown Sent My Jake to us!
He has been one os the Sweetest most Treasured Friends we have had! Always Diplomatic.. always the King.. & Gentelman.. Loving.. Considerate & just always there to listen & cuddle with.
He never chased a Horse or cow or Chicken!
On the Contrary.. JAKE became the Incubator!
Didn't take long for Mama Chickens to realize that Jake was a Friendly.. & He Soon became a One Man Daddy Day Care..
You could see Mamma Chickens running across the field.. call out to Jake.. he'd stand up.. & out would scurry Baby Peeps in all Directions ! He was a Big Old Gentle Giant..
Kittens Loved toTumble all over him.. & he'd just lay there while they played king of the Hill on old Uncle Jake.. tugging at his Tail & Ears..
He'd most often sleep in the barn.. But he'd slip inside when he got a chance too..
As Long as he hadn't gone off on one of his adventures.. He USUALLY was Tick Free.. But if you'd lost track of him sometime during the day.. You can count on him wandering home later that evening after a swim somewhere sporting a new coat of ticks.. Which for some reason the kids at the Barn Always found SO entertaining to sit & pick off of him.. I often wondered if Jake somehow did this intentionaly so he could get a nice brushing & body massage now & then from the Little Barn Brats that used to hang around..!
He loved to lay on the cool concrete floor of the Barn in the Summer.. & in front of the Fire Old Stove there in the Winter..
But it was always fun to find him dug in a hole in the hay when i got to the Barn in the mornings too.. Before anyone else had arrived yet.. He'd wake up.. & walk back & forth with me as I fed & turned out each of the horses.. Which could take a big part of the mornings if I had a Full Barn!
We Sold off all the Stock & moved to a smaller place a bit over 5 years ago.. Jake still with us.. Decided he wanted to go with the new "Down Sized" Mom & Dad too.. Most of the Dogs had at that point either moved on to greener pastures.. or gone with one of our now Grown kids.. or with one of the horses that had since been sold.. we'd had as many as 12 Dogs at one point.. Not counting puppies.. So Jake.. His Wife Jewel a Golden Retreiver/Rodesian Ridgback Mix & odie.. our Little Border Collie.. Were the Last of the 3 big Barn Dogs that Stayed With My Sweetie & I.. Jewel was 2 years older then Jake.. She fianlly died about 3 years ago.. Chrismas Eve Day.. She had had a rough couple weeks.. So I had decided she needed to stay in the Laundry room which is right next to the Kitchen..
She seemed very content there.. as she could see me.. Watch me in the Kitchen.. baking & cooking.. & she was relaxed & rested..
We had a very long talk the night before.. & when I woke up Christmas Eve Morning.. She had gone to sleep for the last time..
I Really thought Jake wouldn't last much past Jewel.. he loved her so very much.. he cried for her even when she started slowing down..
But he didn't.. he just seemed to sadden a bit.. but kept on being Jake.. The Same Old Sweet Jake everyone knew & Loved so dearly.. Just a slower Jake..
Then about the last 6 months.. you could tell that old Curse of the German Shepard hip thing started to kick in for my baby..
He never complained of course.. But you could just see it..
THEN he started this.. Random Peeing.. Really quite out of Character for our old Gentleman.. Peeing all the time.. Anytime.. & Anywhere..
If it weren't pitiful.. it would be funny..
Ok.. it was funny .. & I can say this only because I am the one that has been cleaning UP this PEE!.. this OLD MAN PEE!
& it wasn't just a Little bit of Pee.. no.. thats too much to ask for.. He started to do this Zig Zag type saunter down the hall way.. I started to call him Dean martin.. He sort of Swaggered..
back & Forth as he walked.. & the whole way.. Peeing.. So..
But the time he'd made it to the end of the hall way.. there was this Zig Zag Line of Piss!
I'd Say.. "Oh Jakie.. Come on Man!" & he'd just look up at me with those beautiful big brown eyes of his.. As if to say.. hey.. One day your going to be happy you could wipe up my piss lady..
So.. This went on for quite awhile.. just peeing when he didn't realize it.. not a big deal really.. Then about 3 weeks ago..
He told me that 'Sorry.. But These Hips.. They Really must have an experation date.. Because they don't seem to be working any More My Dear.." I said "That's all right Old man.. I'll carry You..
So.. here it went.. I made him a fresh bed under the tree each morning.. either a new blanket.. or a new bed.. or a new rug..
Carried the Old Man out.. & Hand Fed him.. He had gotten to the point that he needed to have me lift him.. & hold his food bowl too.. & at the end of the day.. I'd have a Fresh Bed Made up For him in the Laundry Room & carry him back inside.. .. Turn him on his OTHER side to avoid Old Man Dog bed Sores....
& give him a fresh brushing.. New Water.. Wash his Face & Clean him up.. Neosporin on any boo boo's.. & Talk to him a bit..
So We had this Routine.. for about 3 weeks..
Then He seemed to be a bit uncomfortable outside.. Too Hot Maybe.. Or the Insects i'm Not Sure.. but I felt that he wasn't able to move around to get away from what ever may be irritating him.. So I Said Jake Needs to come inside for Good..
So.. in the Laundry Room My Old Baby Boy Came...
Every day.. Same Deal.. Breakfast.. Face Wash.. Sponge Bath ..
Body boo boo Check.. New Bed.. & Turn over..
Luckily for my Sweet Heart.. It only went on for him another 4 days.. We Tucked our Pumpkin Jake in for the Last Time LAst Sunday Nite.. We Woke up Monday the 14th & he was gone..

So.. as Sad as i am at loosing such a Sweet Loyal friend..
It's Such a relief to know that he's finished with this journey..
& we were all so very lucky to have known such a wonderful Dog!
I Hope who ever Finds him in his "Next" life has as much a pleasure with him as we did!

love you Jakey!!

Meet Fannie Jayne! My New baby!

2008-07-12T08:01:00.000-07:00

........................................................................................Yippee!! Look What I can Do!

My New Wheels!

She's a Toyota FJ Cruiser!

( Yes, FJ, Viola' ..Fannie Jayne.. )

I LOVE this New Baby!!! She Drives So Sweet! Comfy.. Automatic Stuff's.. Cruise Control.. CD.. Other Music Capabilities Once I figure it all out..!

Seats 5 I think..

The Back Doors are a Trip.. 'Suicide Doors' & loads of Storage too!

So FAR!! I Couldn't Be Happier!

Penny Layne Stretches her Legs!

2008-07-05T07:02:00.000-07:00

.............................................................................................. Well My Sweet Little Pink Toed Tarantual Penny Layne Has had the Nicest of Molts I'll have you know! She shed her little self all nice & pretty with no complications!

Now she's all Black & Shiny with the Prettiest of Pink Toes!

She's so funny the way she holds on to her "old self"... As if she wants to remember it a bit longer before she finally decides to let it go or something..

She let me have it though Last nite.. I'll get a picture of her New shimmery self later on.. This one is her a couple of weeks ago.. Pre-Molt..

2008-07-03T14:38:00.000-07:00

Life is Long.. Life is Hard.. Doesn't always work out the way we want it to.. or even the way it's supposed to.. Does it..?
Why does it seem so difficult to get through sometimes I wonder..
Why do the days seem to not go as planned or behave as they should...

I've decided to split My Blog in two..
This was a suggestion from a very dear Sweet friend..
On a comment that I made..
I'd said that I DO love the Dark Side .. Quite a Bit actually which is what we see reflected here.. My Dee.. My Annie.. & I can talk about My 'T's with out actually Scaring off my Sweet Normal Friends..
I can spill & pour some Sadness of Family things if I want to..
Garden things Too I think..
& if It's too Gloom & Doom then my "Guests' can always switch over to the
"Nitegardener lite".. which is where I decided I will be showing off My Creative Side.. THERE I can spread my Prissy Shabby Chic wings.. !
Here I'll keep the web spinning.. with my Darker Side.. you get the Gist of it.. Dark Shadows & all..
So there.. yes.. Must truly be the Gemini in me..

Look What Jay Bird Came Home With Today!!!!

2008-05-24T18:00:00.000-07:00

Well The Hunt For Car Is Over For The Girl Child!! Thank The Gods!!!
They headed out after Breakfast this morning..(I had to work yes.. SOOoo unfortunate for Me!)
I was given a Blow by Blow Via Texting through out the day..
It was Quik & Pain less & with out too many Signatures they were free to go..!
With the most Beautiful of Cars Jay Bird has ever Seen.. Driven.. Ridden in & By Far EVER owned in her lovely , sweet , short precious life thus far!
Her Very own Dodge Caliber!
Silver!! with Black Interior.. & a blue bit on the instrument panel As well as in the seats..
I wasn't with.. so I'm not quite sure How they pull off describing this blue that they have addded in there.. But Jay Bird loves it.. so that's Good enough to me!

Daddy was proud as a Peacock.. & looked as if he had just given birth by the time they made it home! I'm sure an all day event together was pretty much more then the two of then could really handle on any given day.. But under stress & pressure.. it must have been way to fun & I'm really almost sorry I missed it!!
The Bonding was a HUGE thing for them both though .. & I'm glad they had this opportunity together!! Yes.. going into debt.. what a way to bring two people together!!

Cheers!!

Car Shopping with a Bird & a Bean!!

2008-05-20T09:26:00.000-07:00

I have ONE Day a Week that I can say.. "This IS MY Day!"
MY Day to relish what EVER I choose to do! It's Monday..
I can Sleep in if I want to! OR I can Shop if I want to!
OR... what I REALLY Love to do is this!!
Get up bright & early.. Load up a wee little Change Purse with some cash.. Fix myself a Nice glass of Ice Tea.. Go out to my Truck.. & heading out to a handfull of Thrift Shops & winding up with some LOVELY deals on some little Doilies.. or Linens.. Some Grand old Kitchen Surprises or old Glasses.. Maybe a hot little Apron! Who Knows??? Then heading for lunch at a Quaint little Antique Shop that has Tea & Sandwiches with some friends!!

But.. Alas.. No.. My Time seems rarely to be my own..
Today.. It was spent with looking at Cars with a screeching Jay Bird.. who's current wheels we have been babying along for the past 3 years or more are finally giving out on her.... & the Bean.. Who initially had been forbidden to travel with us by his Sister because.. Well because she just started OUT in a foul mood.. That's Why..
We did see a few promising cars.. But the Attack of the Very Hungery Salesmen was a bit depressing.. So We choose to when at all possible to Stay Inside our car with the doors & windows locked & just slowly cruise the lots.. If something looked promising.. The Bean was elected to make a run for it to the targeted car to check out the year, price & mileage & make it back to our car before being attacked by a Starving Sales Man!
Aggresive isn't even the word really.. Which is what I tried to Explain to Sales Man Paul as he kept tapping on the car window as we were trying to slowly depart the obstacle path they have so clevery devised in their lots.. It's more cult like persuasion..
He Kept saying things through the Window like.. " I can help you here if you'll only let me.. we can make this as painless as possible.." (?) And... "And then you'll be free to go." Really?? oh REALLY.? I stopped then.. & rolled my window down.. had not yet in Paul's parking lot.. but when he said we would be free to go.. Something about this was a bit discomforting to the crazy voices in my head.. I said "Oh REALLY Paul? THEN I would be Free to Go? Are you listening to what you just said to me? Are you saying I WOULD NOT be free to go Otherwise??"
Yeah.. well Bean Said something Like "Mom.. stay in the Car"
Jay Bird just started to laugh.. & Paul took a few steps back from My car that he had come so accostomed to touching now..
I just starred at him for a few seconds.. He was quiet for the very first time since our rude introduction to his parking lot.. Bean was quiet.. Jay Bird was laughing.. quietly.. but never the less.. yes.. still laughing.. & I looked at Paul & said "Yes.. I thought so Dear.. wise move.." & we left & went across the street to the next feeding frenzy..
Yes.. i DO love Car Shopping!! I think I'd rather eat a sponge that sat on my kitchen sink all week long!
It's rather unfortunate that I had not found a Bridge.. I was so looking forward to jumping off of one by the end of the day..

Revelation Moment..
It Does not Matter how old Your Children become.. Stick them in a
car together for several hours & allow them to become tired & hungry.. & they will still fight & behave exactly the way they did when they were Young! EVEN kicking the Seat in front of them!
AND Throw things at each other!

Yes.. We must do this again very Soon!

For My Girls!

2008-05-17T20:01:00.000-07:00

For My Very Most Favorite Of Farm Girls!

& Yes.. you Do all Know who you are..
My Sweetest of Friends who listen to me Ramble..
Vent & Whine, Cry, Piss & Moan & Bitch & Go on so aimlessly at times!
This Blog has GOT to be dedicated to you my Dears!
For if it weren't for you.. I would not be typing this madness out at all..
You've pushed me here.. So for good or bad.. here I am..
In the Land Of Blog! Amongst the Rest.. The Very BEST of You!
So you'd better Read & Comment Favorably!
Or I'll just have to wish ill on your tomato plants this season!

Suggestions & Help is ALWAYS appreciated & will most definatly be required Dear Sisters!

For You..
All My Love!

K.