"Slack Ass"

SLACK ASS! THIS should surely be my new Title when it comes to keeping up in BLOG Land!
Seriously..
I cant seem to motivate myself to write.. and funny thing is.. i really do enjoy it..
This blindless purging..
So.. 'Ruler to Wrist'.. Here goes again.. (Not that anyone reads me anymore cause they just never know when I will go into a rant or bitch over laod and feel compelled to spill anymore..)
But I feel I need to.. especially when I may actually have good things happening in my life..
Ok.. Divorced a year now.. Check.
Still struggle emotionally with said Divorce.. or more so.. the actual break up.
But.. Water under the bridge so to speak.. I survived the 1st year of sepeartion.. drowned a little.. Thank God for Family , friends and love.
Made it through an entire 1st year of divorce with out jumping outta any open windows.. What a year that was.. But strangely.. not as horrible as the year of seperation BEFORE the Divorce.. I had moments of clarity.. moments of ghost walking.. lots of numbness and truly.. so many dumb ideas and thoughts.. add to that 'Speed dating'.. I have no idea what my mind was trying to do.
I did realize early on that 1. I did NOT want to be alone.. & 2. That I was in search of a partner.
Funny.. (Not HaHa) I said things like.." I know Im a better person as a couple then i could ever be as a single person'. And I dont mean by saying that Im not ok on my own.. or that I am not of any value or have no quality being by myself.. I just know im happiest being with someone.. having someone to take care and someone that cares for me in the same way..
I KNEW I did NOT want to be alone....!
So...
The "Taking Applications and Conducting Interviews" process began!
Rarely did one make it to the 2nd interview.. rarer yet.. a 3rd..
Being "Voted off my Island" was inevitable.
Im not fussy.. Im not picky.. Im not looking for perfection..
Im looking for mine..
MY perfect fit. MY Soul mate. MY True Love. MY Man!
I found him.
I'd decidced I was done searching.. For awhile anyway. I was going to take in my search feeders and just try to recoup and ponder life.. only temporarily though..
And of course.. thats how it happens.. He found me..
I said i found him.. Truthfully.. he found me..
I had decided I liked him right off.. But was now in the.. "just a day at a time, not looking" mode now. So i saw us as possibly being great friends but had no inclination of it being more.
Our first 'Date'.. As HE calls it was our "Potatoe Chucking Date" He invited me out to his house.. Where he planned a great dinner of one of his Specialties.. Meatloaf!! Terrific dinner!
But prior to our dinner he showed me around his Home & Garden.. Where he decided we needed to forage for potatoes! He started digging in with his pitchfork and began unearthing some beautiful home growns! I sat along the grass as we talked and he worked.. He then procceded to 'chuck' potatoes at me.. Quite funny on a 1st date I thought! Definetly brought an aire of ease to the date! We then finished preparing dinner.. stuck it in the oven And took a quik drive out to the Beach to see the sun set. It was so freaking windy and cold He burried me in his jacket! Nice & Cozy! (I'm certain now today this of course was part of his plan to woe me.
Home for a great Dinner.. Then he reminded me how to play Back Gammon after over 20 years of not playing... I sucked at it of course..
So.. History was made..
I am Still with My Potatoe Chuckin Man today & In More Love With him then Id ever thought I deserved to be!
So.. Happy Ending for me after all!