Old Me.. Slightly More Jaded

After being 'gone' for so long I know I need to write, to express, to purge.
I have been keeping a journal. But somehow, this feeling very unfulfilling.
Ive missed my Blog(s). I think this is where I need to be.
I miss so many of my friends from 'here'....

Now looking at my life I am so very imprssed with my having split into 2 Blogs!
I can still do the Sweet, Cute and Girlie stuff over at the Lighter side..
But can still express and vent and bitch here with out too much concern of Stepping on Toes or offending..

The Down Side is this:
Im writing now to REALLY unload..
Im divorced.. He left me, He says Im no longer what he wants..
Have you ANY idea the hell , pain and fear It is to be starting all over again , ON YOUR OWN..
In every aspect of your life at this age?
Devastating!
THIS truly is the word of the year!
Nothing else better describes it!
I wish this feeling and experience on No one else.
Not even him.

So, forgive me in advance for my rants and ramblings here for as long as Im compelled to
expell them..
Im sure I'll be ignored or snuck off away from for a bit by some.
But really.. This is my life , whats left of it and how I choose to move forward and live again, rebuilding around me.

Please, feel free to tell me to shut the hell up.. Shake it off.. Move forward.. Let it go.. Piss off..
tell me your experiences.. Anything..
Everything..
Im here to hear.. to gain insight and wanting to move forward..
With just a shade more jade to me then before....